My last night here in Malaysia before I come back in a year's time.
Done all my packing and things I needed to do.
But then why do I still feel so weird?
I miss home and my family especially my crazy, noisy and cheeky bunch of cousins.
Until then, I'll update my blog whenever I have settled down in Melbourne and have internet access.
Dad, Mum I miss you and I love you both very much.
*tears*
Monday, March 2, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
Because You Live - Jessy McCartney
Because you live and breath, Because you make me believe in myself....
Lately, I've been having sleepless nights or should I say unsoundly sleep. I get agitated easily, I get moody in a second and been having weird "nightmares". I feel like a walking zombie with emotional ups and downs. Sighhh. 2 more days left and I'll be gone. I guess no one will know how I am feeling inside now.
Went to Monash today and I kind of miss that place. Looking around in the library, cafeteria... the smell of Monash, guess it's really goodbye to Monash. Been driving around the whole day with Mum looking for things. Everywhere I go, I seem to look at it properly thinking I won't be seeing it in a year's time.
Been keeping my tears, trying my best not to cry but I don't think I can keep it in any longer. I keep myself busy or laughing but the heart knows itself best. I just need a little support but I don't seem to get it.
Why do I feel so insecure now? I really don't feel confident anymore as the time comes nearer.
This time leaving, I really don't feel happy one bit because I know it'll only be further apart. It'll never be the same again.
I just want to run away and cry as loud as I can and as much as I want. If only.....
Lately, I've been having sleepless nights or should I say unsoundly sleep. I get agitated easily, I get moody in a second and been having weird "nightmares". I feel like a walking zombie with emotional ups and downs. Sighhh. 2 more days left and I'll be gone. I guess no one will know how I am feeling inside now.
Went to Monash today and I kind of miss that place. Looking around in the library, cafeteria... the smell of Monash, guess it's really goodbye to Monash. Been driving around the whole day with Mum looking for things. Everywhere I go, I seem to look at it properly thinking I won't be seeing it in a year's time.
Been keeping my tears, trying my best not to cry but I don't think I can keep it in any longer. I keep myself busy or laughing but the heart knows itself best. I just need a little support but I don't seem to get it.
Why do I feel so insecure now? I really don't feel confident anymore as the time comes nearer.
This time leaving, I really don't feel happy one bit because I know it'll only be further apart. It'll never be the same again.
I just want to run away and cry as loud as I can and as much as I want. If only.....
Firefly - ATeens
Firefly come back to me, Make the night as bright as day....
In exactly 4 more days, I'll be leaving to Melbourne alone. My parents are not following me this time. Imagine how dark my days will be there..... I want my firefly together with me.
I've started packing and I didn't realize there were so many things to pack. :$ BAHH!!
I just feel like packing my whole room and bring it over there but of course, there's baggage limits. *sighsss*
So little time, so much to do. Visit relatives, friends before I leave. PACK, buy last minute things (which I just realized I still need loads of stuff. EEKkk!!), MORE PACKING, dinner with family, MORE PACKING, my "last" mamak meal before I come back end year, EVEN MORE PACKING, clean toilet and room, MORE PACKING, watch movie, visit Children, MORE PACKING..... see how much packing I still need to do?? :$ oh and I forgot to add, I have loads of crying to do too. *Sighhhs* being a "shallow eyed person" I'll cry just so easily........ :(
I'm starting to miss home already as the day goes by. Can't really imagine myself being away from home this long. *sighhs* and my uni actually started already but I'm still sitting my ass in Malaysia, packing! hahah the wonders of late exemptions but then I'll have to worry bout catching up in class.
Oh wells, time to PACK again.....
To those, I couldn't meet before I leave..I'm very sorry! Take care.
I miss home already.
My bed, My blanket, ASTRO, my baby dog, family.....
*tears*
Firefly come lead me on, follow you into the sun...
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In exactly 4 more days, I'll be leaving to Melbourne alone. My parents are not following me this time. Imagine how dark my days will be there..... I want my firefly together with me.
I've started packing and I didn't realize there were so many things to pack. :$ BAHH!!
I just feel like packing my whole room and bring it over there but of course, there's baggage limits. *sighsss*
So little time, so much to do. Visit relatives, friends before I leave. PACK, buy last minute things (which I just realized I still need loads of stuff. EEKkk!!), MORE PACKING, dinner with family, MORE PACKING, my "last" mamak meal before I come back end year, EVEN MORE PACKING, clean toilet and room, MORE PACKING, watch movie, visit Children, MORE PACKING..... see how much packing I still need to do?? :$ oh and I forgot to add, I have loads of crying to do too. *Sighhhs* being a "shallow eyed person" I'll cry just so easily........ :(
I'm starting to miss home already as the day goes by. Can't really imagine myself being away from home this long. *sighhs* and my uni actually started already but I'm still sitting my ass in Malaysia, packing! hahah the wonders of late exemptions but then I'll have to worry bout catching up in class.
Oh wells, time to PACK again.....
To those, I couldn't meet before I leave..I'm very sorry! Take care.
I miss home already.
My bed, My blanket, ASTRO, my baby dog, family.....
*tears*
Firefly come lead me on, follow you into the sun...
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Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Suga Suga - Baby Bash
Alryteyyy!! It's my 100th post and what better way to celebrate it with a wonderful new link. =)
i like my new link. "www.meghann-hlmg.blogspot.com" very nice ring to it. hehe.
baby's and my name combined. eee. I love so muchh.
CNY is around the corner!! Yays!! =) cookies, family reunions, food!! yummmms. SO very glad.
It's been awhile since I've updated a proper post. Hmmms internet problems are not helping very much. Bah!!
what would the world be if nobody loved and nobody cares bout the environment? Seriously! On the way home I looked out the window and what used to be clear sky is just so clouded now. I wonder if there would ever be a sky in 10 years to come? I think I'll probably go like "The sky is falling". Mum shocked me today by saying "Oh I forgot my shopping bag". Made me guilty for those plastic bags I use.
Baby baby hannlun, I'm looking out the sky and I miss u so much now. I know I saw you yesterday but I miss you dearly dyyy. =(. I love those moments where we laugh and when you suck my cheeks. AHHHH!! *super kiss* heheh BOLT BOLT!!
Anyways, main topic is I kidnapped baby on the 6th to Genting as surprise for our Anniversary since baby wasn't going to be here on our day. =). Very glad that he loved the whole day and his smile on his face was so very very much worth everything. Baby, I love you so so much!! *stares into the sky* *rabbit teeth pops out* hahahah!!!
My sweet baby got me a very cute teddy bear from those coin tossing thing. His never giving up effort to win me the bear was the best feeling ever when he won it. Hehe. It's been a wonderful 5 months journey together with him.
i like my new link. "www.meghann-hlmg.blogspot.com" very nice ring to it. hehe.
baby's and my name combined. eee. I love so muchh.
CNY is around the corner!! Yays!! =) cookies, family reunions, food!! yummmms. SO very glad.
It's been awhile since I've updated a proper post. Hmmms internet problems are not helping very much. Bah!!
what would the world be if nobody loved and nobody cares bout the environment? Seriously! On the way home I looked out the window and what used to be clear sky is just so clouded now. I wonder if there would ever be a sky in 10 years to come? I think I'll probably go like "The sky is falling". Mum shocked me today by saying "Oh I forgot my shopping bag". Made me guilty for those plastic bags I use.
Baby baby hannlun, I'm looking out the sky and I miss u so much now. I know I saw you yesterday but I miss you dearly dyyy. =(. I love those moments where we laugh and when you suck my cheeks. AHHHH!! *super kiss* heheh BOLT BOLT!!
Anyways, main topic is I kidnapped baby on the 6th to Genting as surprise for our Anniversary since baby wasn't going to be here on our day. =). Very glad that he loved the whole day and his smile on his face was so very very much worth everything. Baby, I love you so so much!! *stares into the sky* *rabbit teeth pops out* hahahah!!!
My sweet baby got me a very cute teddy bear from those coin tossing thing. His never giving up effort to win me the bear was the best feeling ever when he won it. Hehe. It's been a wonderful 5 months journey together with him.
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