A twist in my story

Today,
I feel suffocated, lost, numb, lonely, sad, frustrated,
As if I am alone in a dark space,
Screaming,
But no one can hear me,
No one knows where I am.
I can't go anywhere,
I can't breathe.
All I do is just sit there, crying.

I have a hunch I landed in Planet Depress.
I have been in such a lousy, foul mood lately.
Even chocolates did not cheer me up.
I miss laughing so hard till my tummy hurts.
I miss laughing over silly little things.
I miss giggling like a little girl,
who just shared a little secret.
I miss laughing over "I don't know too".

Childhood turned into adulthood.
It's ironic how people say adulthood is freedom.
When all we get piled on us is,
Responsibility, Maturity,
It seems that once we have reached a certain age,
We are suppose to be fulfill a certain criteria of adulthood.

I can't run away like a little girl anymore,
Running towards daddy when things don't go right,
No!
It's time to grow up.
It's time to be a woman and face everything that comes my way.
Time to face up and confront life.

Face reality.
Face life.
Face obstacles.

but right now,
I just want my Mickey.