wong megan

4 Minutes - Justin Timberlake & Madonna

2009-03-02T03:21:00.002+08:00

My last night here in Malaysia before I come back in a year's time.
Done all my packing and things I needed to do.
But then why do I still feel so weird?

I miss home and my family especially my crazy, noisy and cheeky bunch of cousins.

Until then, I'll update my blog whenever I have settled down in Melbourne and have internet access.

Dad, Mum I miss you and I love you both very much.

*tears*

Because You Live - Jessy McCartney

2009-02-27T22:41:00.002+08:00

Because you live and breath, Because you make me believe in myself....

Lately, I've been having sleepless nights or should I say unsoundly sleep. I get agitated easily, I get moody in a second and been having weird "nightmares". I feel like a walking zombie with emotional ups and downs. Sighhh. 2 more days left and I'll be gone. I guess no one will know how I am feeling inside now.

Went to Monash today and I kind of miss that place. Looking around in the library, cafeteria... the smell of Monash, guess it's really goodbye to Monash. Been driving around the whole day with Mum looking for things. Everywhere I go, I seem to look at it properly thinking I won't be seeing it in a year's time.

Been keeping my tears, trying my best not to cry but I don't think I can keep it in any longer. I keep myself busy or laughing but the heart knows itself best. I just need a little support but I don't seem to get it.

Why do I feel so insecure now? I really don't feel confident anymore as the time comes nearer.

This time leaving, I really don't feel happy one bit because I know it'll only be further apart. It'll never be the same again.

I just want to run away and cry as loud as I can and as much as I want. If only.....

Firefly - ATeens

2009-02-27T01:07:00.005+08:00

Firefly come back to me, Make the night as bright as day....

In exactly 4 more days, I'll be leaving to Melbourne alone. My parents are not following me this time. Imagine how dark my days will be there..... I want my firefly together with me.

I've started packing and I didn't realize there were so many things to pack. :$ BAHH!!
I just feel like packing my whole room and bring it over there but of course, there's baggage limits. *sighsss*

So little time, so much to do. Visit relatives, friends before I leave. PACK, buy last minute things (which I just realized I still need loads of stuff. EEKkk!!), MORE PACKING, dinner with family, MORE PACKING, my "last" mamak meal before I come back end year, EVEN MORE PACKING, clean toilet and room, MORE PACKING, watch movie, visit Children, MORE PACKING..... see how much packing I still need to do?? :$ oh and I forgot to add, I have loads of crying to do too. *Sighhhs* being a "shallow eyed person" I'll cry just so easily........ :(

I'm starting to miss home already as the day goes by. Can't really imagine myself being away from home this long. *sighhs* and my uni actually started already but I'm still sitting my ass in Malaysia, packing! hahah the wonders of late exemptions but then I'll have to worry bout catching up in class.

Oh wells, time to PACK again.....
To those, I couldn't meet before I leave..I'm very sorry! Take care.

I miss home already.
My bed, My blanket, ASTRO, my baby dog, family.....

*tears*

Firefly come lead me on, follow you into the sun...

Have I told You Lately - Barry Manilow

2009-02-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

I <3 you

Tan Hann-Lun.

Enough said.

Suga Suga - Baby Bash

2009-01-17T17:57:00.005+08:00

Alryteyyy!! It's my 100th post and what better way to celebrate it with a wonderful new link. =)

i like my new link. "www.meghann-hlmg.blogspot.com" very nice ring to it. hehe.
baby's and my name combined. eee. I love so muchh.

CNY is around the corner!! Yays!! =) cookies, family reunions, food!! yummmms. SO very glad.

It's been awhile since I've updated a proper post. Hmmms internet problems are not helping very much. Bah!!

what would the world be if nobody loved and nobody cares bout the environment? Seriously! On the way home I looked out the window and what used to be clear sky is just so clouded now. I wonder if there would ever be a sky in 10 years to come? I think I'll probably go like "The sky is falling". Mum shocked me today by saying "Oh I forgot my shopping bag". Made me guilty for those plastic bags I use.

Baby baby hannlun, I'm looking out the sky and I miss u so much now. I know I saw you yesterday but I miss you dearly dyyy. =(. I love those moments where we laugh and when you suck my cheeks. AHHHH!! *super kiss* heheh BOLT BOLT!!

Anyways, main topic is I kidnapped baby on the 6th to Genting as surprise for our Anniversary since baby wasn't going to be here on our day. =). Very glad that he loved the whole day and his smile on his face was so very very much worth everything. Baby, I love you so so much!! *stares into the sky* *rabbit teeth pops out* hahahah!!!
My sweet baby got me a very cute teddy bear from those coin tossing thing. His never giving up effort to win me the bear was the best feeling ever when he won it. Hehe. It's been a wonderful 5 months journey together with him.

2009-01-13T21:27:00.001+08:00

aha!

there i go.

changed link.
meganwongmayjing.blogspot.com.

brilliant. :) long but it's personal.

Womanizer - Britney Spears

2009-01-13T16:40:00.002+08:00

I.feel.like.changing.my.blog.link!!

but what should i put?

thinks.thinks.thinks.

away.from.society.

hmmm.why????

Live Your Life - Rihanna & T.I

2009-01-04T03:58:00.003+08:00

"Belated Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2009!!!"

A new year, a new experience.
Forget the bad memories and enjoy the good ones.

2008. A year filled with ups and downs, lost and found, reality and fairytale, laughter and tears. Just a typical human being life exprience. The end of my year 1 Uni life.

2009.
I was blessed to begin the start of this year with my love, Hann-Lun welcoming a brand new year overlooking a wonderful view of fireworks from the city at the strike of 12 midnight. :). A quiet, memorable and love new year I had celebrated with baby, his family plus Elicia as well.

My new year resolutions are.....
hahah! Baby knows the answer.

As for now, I am addicted Hotel Giant, thanks to my boy. I can't stop playing it. :) It's FUN!!

Baby, Thanks for a wonderful beginning together with you.
A new year, a new fresh start, a new chapter of our life to write together.

Dad, Mum, my sisters and family.
I love you all. May you be blessed everyday.

My dear friends.
Happy New Year!!!! I wish you all a wonderful year ahead. :)

Miss Independant - Neyo

2008-12-21T16:12:00.007+08:00

Penang '08.
16 - 18 December.

Dearest Hann-Lun,

Thank you baby for a wonderful 3 days with YOU.
Every moment spent with laughter and love.
We now know that YOU are better at reading maps and I would do better to stay put just driving. Every delicious food we tasted in Penang, moments on the beach, every single moment we spent will never be forgotten =) besides we have 400 plus photos to remind me of them.
A journey and trip that is worth every single second and every single emotion I feel.
I'm glad we made this happen dearest, I'm glad we made US happen between us.
Thank you for babying me when I was sick and putting up with my "mishaps" along the whole trip. =).
I love you with all my heart, Tan Hann-Lun.
hehehe. Dumbass loves baby..... ;)

Love, Megan

Dear,

Cute girl, i'd do anything to make u happy and smile. Its so nice being with you because you are always the way you are and it makes me happy.

To all : It is nice being with the one you love and to spend time with them, to go for a vacation, to relax yourself and to understand them better by opening yourself to them. Don't restrict your love for them, in fact make them the happiest person on earth. Do whatever you can to achieve that because this is what love is for, it also give you and your lover the best outcome. Those that have someone they love, appreciate them fully and love them with all your heart. Learn from them and show them by actions how much you love them. It will gain them happiness and they will appreciate you even more. I wish you luck in everything you do.

Thank you Megan once again, for making this work. From the photos you can tell how happy we are :) I love you. Thank you for lookin after of me when it was my turn to fall sick and you were really caring. Im very lucky to have Megan as my girl and i will cherish her with all my heart. Thank you for the small things we share that really made us laugh so much, also the bondings we have. Haha. By the way Megan is not independant at all, but fortunately thats why i love her. Hehe.
- Hann-Lun

LOVE - Nat King Cole

2008-12-08T22:45:00.004+08:00

Everytime I needed a shoulder to cry on,
You're there for me.
Through ups and downs I face in life,
You're there for me.
TImes I feel so lost,
You're there for me.

Baby, we went through so many in life together and I am sure there will be alot more coming our way. Somehow I am not scared because I know you will be there beside me going through everything together.
Therefore,

Everytime you need a shoulder to cry on or need comforting,
I'll be there for you.
Through ups and downs you face in life,
I'll be there for you.
Times you feel son lost,
I'll be there for you.
Every single moment that you face in your life,
Babyy, I'll be there for you.

Happy 4 months dearest.
I love you Hann-Lun.

Dancing in the moonlight - toploader

2008-12-07T00:01:00.001+08:00

everything is worth it.

whatever you like - T.I

2008-12-05T23:10:00.004+08:00

my sunshine.

thank you!

If I were a boy - Beyonce

2008-11-30T22:26:00.001+08:00

Screwed up life.

Enough said.

Dance with my father - Luthor Vandross

2008-11-30T00:44:00.003+08:00

I think. I know and I hate.
That I am such a huge disappointment to my parents.
I always have been. Nothing I do can ever make them proud.
I am just a disappointment.

I am not a very good daughter.
I am not a good daughter.

I disappointed my family.
I am not a good sister.

I'm sorry Mum and Dad.
Sorry I am such a daughter.
I'm sorry my sisters.
Sorry I am such a sister.
I'm sorry.

Do you believe in magic - aly

2008-11-29T02:04:00.002+08:00

I love you!

You're the reason why I am who I am.

25 minutes - micheal learns to rock

2008-11-22T12:58:00.002+08:00

i sit and ponder why life is full of doubts.
doubts that are out of our control though we think that we are controlling it.
25 minutes to late.
i wonder if 25 minutes is too much of a chance? because we, humans may just lose our precious possesion or loved one in less than a minute.
that is of course if, we continue to have to mindset that we will have our whole life to make up for our mistakes or maybe do something different the next time.
it's always the next time and the next time and the next time.
when will it ever be NOW?
human beings like us, yes we do make mistakes and we learn from it to be a better person but then again, how many more hours do we have left on earth to learn and be a better person?

i just wish i have more minutes left on this earth and make every single day memorable. not only to my family and loved ones but also to other people.

a glimpse of my mind

sexy,naughty,bitchy - tata young

2008-11-20T02:13:00.002+08:00

baby is home!!! :)
a very veryy veryyyy good surprise I must say.
but overall i'm just so happy.
Thank YOU hann lun. ;)
yays.

i love you.

for the first time - kenny loggins

2008-11-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

let the rain fall down and wake my dreams.
let it wash away my sanity.
cause i want to feel the thunder i wanna scream.
let the rain fall down....
-Hilary Duff, Come Clean-

bad feelings are surrounding the mind.

haha. "thun tan" :)
is actually called "sui tan".
now i know.
________________________________________________________________

Congratulations to my brother, Cheanu and wife, Sook Yee!
Thank you for sharing such a memorable day with me.
________________________________________________________________

i miss you

all you wanted - michelle branch

2008-11-12T16:15:00.002+08:00

hahah a known fact.
creative minds are rarely tidy that is why their rooms are always in a mess. :)
brilliant excuse.

silly little things i am thinking of while babyy is sleeping.
:)

on the other hand, numbers and graphs are giving me a headache. :(

everlasting - boa

2008-11-11T18:46:00.002+08:00

Diettt!!!

I need to go on a diet. :(
gained weight and fats.
Not good not good at all.

Sighhhh!

Are you happy now? - michelle branch

2008-11-11T15:30:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile since I blogged an actual post despite having the holidays now. Holidays have started and I spent it lazing around home, watching tv and dramas, done massive cleaning to my room especially my study table *grins*, "work" for dad and oh wells, that's mostly it I think. Nothing much I'm afraid.

I got bored of my wallpaper and decided to come up with new ones but sadly I suck and am very dumb with photoshop therefore thank those intelligent people who came up with PhotoScape and Picasa for brilliant programmes for people like me. :).

I had a weird conversation with my other half and it caught me by surprise about how I felt. It brought tears to my eyes as expected but the feeling I had shoke me up and scared the hell out of me. I now know how important my other half is to me. Babyyy, you matter to me.

Summer school is about to commence in less than a month. I'm still considering the odds of me actually going for it but I suppose I'm going to enroll for summer. At least it's just for a month......*i think*.

Life's kind of weird nowdays. It's like things are not going right these few days. Been sleeping quite little eventhough it's holidays. I crave for a holiday by the beach now or somewhere cold and nice. :) I kind of miss my time in Phuket with LiLian and Su Ann. :( Oh wells, I'll just hope for more to come.

7 more days. :)

Ilyn's Tag #3

2008-11-11T15:18:00.002+08:00

Final tag from the annoying sister. :P *grumbling*

1. The last person to tag you is....
Ilyn/ Ei leen.

2. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
Ahahah! ANNOYING, funny, lame, computer worm, noisy. :P

3. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?
hmmm this is hard. :) *kidding* being my sister

4. The most memorable words that he/she spoke to you?
"WOII! jie"

5. If he/she becomes your lover you will....
hahah will never happen

6. If he/she becomes your enemy you will....
lose a sister. :(

7. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on.....
being annoying as ever. *peanuts gf* ahahha

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, its because....
naah nothing.

9. The most desirable thing for him/her to do is....
hahahah anything for her. :)

10. Overall impression towards him/her is.....
She'e being a younger sister.

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
As if I care about what ppl think about me. What matters most is how my family and my loved one thinks about me.

12. The character for you for yourself is...
unexplainable. :P

13. On the contrary, the character you hate for yourself is?
cry and laugh too easily??

14. the most ideal person you want to be is....
Myself. :) well maybe a better me.

15. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about him/her
thank you for liking and caring for me :)

there are other numbers but it requires me to tag ppl. :S so i deleted it. ahaha

Ilyn's Tag #2

2008-11-11T15:07:00.003+08:00

I have no idea why my sister is so free to do this tags during her finals :S

1. Six people to tag :
1. aiyohh! whoever.
2. i dont feel like tagging
3. other ppl who have
4. a life.
5. unlike me now.
6. :)

2. Six things I'm passionate about:
1. My baby
2. My family
3. My future
4. My life
5. Community service
6. Studies??

3. Six things I say too often :
1. Woii
2. babyyy
3. monkey u!!
4. wthhh?
5. eyhhh
6. heheheh

4. Six books I've read recently :
1. Macroecons
2. Marketing
3. Business Law
4. Burned Alive
5. Archie comics
6. Over the rainbow

5. Six songs I listen to again and again :
1. All bout loving you - Bon Jovi
2. Always be my baby - David Cook
3. Lucky - Colby Cailat & Jason Mraz
4. Honey Honey - Mamma Mia OST
5. Wo De Kuai Le - Fated to Love you OST
6. All My life - Kc And Jojo

6. Six things I've learnt in the past :
1. Speak my mind
2. Don't keep anything from my partner
3. Actions speak louder than words
4. Giving is the best feeling
5. Being harsh works when I care
6. Appreciate and cherish everything beside me

Ilyn's Tag #1

2008-11-11T14:45:00.002+08:00

One of ilyn's tag. OH wells. im gonna go it since i am bored and there's nothing to do now. :)

Tag #1 from my jobless sister.

[01] Name: Megan
[02] Nickname: Ah gan, Maggie, Megs, Meg
[03] Married: Ohh. :) hehehe
[04] Zodiac Sign: Gemini/ Taurus
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 19
[07] High School: SMK Bukit Jelutong
[08] College: Taylor's & Monash Uni
[09] Height: 172cm
[10] Weight: 50kg. oh i'm fat! :)
[11] Do you like yourself: yes. i thinkkk
[12] Piercings: 2
[13] Right or left: right
[14] Are you a freak: i think so. :P
[15] Hair: over shoulder
[16] Skin: i dunno how to describe
[17] Allergic: hmmmm.
[18] What are you doing now: doing this tag
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: sleep
[20] What will you do 10 years later: hmm living and breathing i hope.

FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: parents
[22] Siblings (included you): 3
[23] Eldest: Wendy
[24] Youngest: EiLeen
[25] Love/hate your family: love.

MY ONE AND ONLY
[26] You found your another half: oh yesss :)
[27] If yes, who is he/she: hann lun
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be:
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: ahahaha.
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): huhhh? whats with the numbers?
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): again?? :S
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: hmm yeap
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: hmmmmm sorry.
[34] Ever argue with your other half: who doesn't? healthy relationship
[35] You with your other half since: 08.08.08
[36] Are you straight/lesbo: ooo. straight but girls are good as well :)
[37] Reasons you love your other half: because i just do
[38] You and your other half in which stage: together :)
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: we don't woo. :P
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: heheheh

FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: ng pooi yee.
[42] Your first enemy: my kindergarden teacher. hahah ms. caterpillar
[43] The friend you love the most: my sister. :)
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1 only): ms.caterpillar.
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: every single one of them
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: ahahah. like my sister said none.
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: naah
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: naah
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: hahah i ended up with him now ;)
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope.
[51] If your friend backstabs you: oh wells. what can i do?
[52] If your friend betray you: again. oh wells.
[53] If your friend woo your lover: hmm *humms silently* that means he's cute :)
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: I'll run away
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: hahahha.

STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: I don't think so
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: veryy last min most of the time
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: ahahah teachers. :)
[59] Always late to school/college: uni yes. but school nope.
[60] Your class: hahah uni classes
[61] You love your seniors: never had a senior during highschool.
[62] Senior who you love the most: none.
[63] Your classmates good/bad: :) brilliant mixture
[64] Excellent result classmate: those smart ones?? :)
[65] Laziest classmate: everyone??

PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: are born smart
[67] Stupid people: are not stupid.
[68] Good looking people: is their inner beauty that shines out.
[69] Ugly people: are never ugly.
[70] Funny people: makes me laugh
[71] Cute people: hahaha :) are just cute.
[72] Bad people: are confused souls
[73] Honest people: are true.
[74] Acting people: fake.
[75] You are what kind of people: a normal human being.

PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: hugs
[78] Shorter or taller:taller
[79] hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: nice hugs :)
[81] Listener or talker: BOTH
[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic
[83] Good husband or Good Father: Good husband and father :)

FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: oohh lala dum dee dum heheh
[85] Numbers of kid(s): i like children. go figure.
[86] Career: business i think.
[87] Salary: enough to be happy.
[88] Retirement age: young but not too young.
[89] Properties value: hahah huh?
[90] Wishes: happiness.

TAGGED
[91] w
[92] h
[93] o
[94] e
[95] v
[96] e
[97] r
[98] -
[99] -
[100] -

great dreams together

2008-11-08T21:10:00.003+08:00

holidays have passed for nearly a week now. im using buddy's phone to post this blogpost. So very interesting. Haha :) so sakai-ish la me. 1st time using hp to go online. Oh wells. Time to concentrate in convention. :) hehe.
A little note:
happy 3 months boyy
I love you. A wonderful journey i am sharing with you. Good luck hann lun!
10 more days :)

...

2008-11-01T14:23:00.002+08:00

Another 2 more papers to go and finals will be over and done with.
But yet i don't know why for some certain reasons I am not happy at all.
I think the fear of failing is coming to me. Monash! sighhhhh.
Stress stress stress.

Plus I've gotten myself ill once again during finals. It always happens. I think it's just pure bad luck. I think I have lost my mood to blog once again. :(. sighhhh!!!

17 more days!! :)
I think that's the only thing I can look forward to now days.
other than that. Uni life is just plain crappy. Or maybe it's just the uni itself.
sighhh!

Nadia's Theme

2008-10-25T18:31:00.005+08:00

Finals are coming up in a few days time and I have trouble sleeping again. :(

I thought mum was the only person in the world who could wake me up by calling me once. I was wrong. I found mum's best friend --> babyy. One phone call and I would be awake. Mum's going to be very pleased coz she finds it hard to wake me up now. Oh wells, I think besides Mum and him, others find it so hard to wake me up. They should feel honoured. :P. hahaha.

I feel blessed and loved.
Thank you darlingg.

Bo Go Ship Da

2008-10-23T21:14:00.005+08:00

Days without you are days I feel so gloomy.
Waiting for your warmth to be back by my side.
You are the best damn thing.

hexic games never fail to help me release stress.
:)

until i got beaten!

i miss YOU mickey boy.

Waiting for you

2008-10-19T01:51:00.005+08:00

Reality of life.
I experienced it this past week. I witness it, I saw it, I felt it. It was not nice nor was it bad. At least now I have a different perception of reality. It's true and all it takes it's truth to face it. A simple 5 letter word. T-R-U-T-H. Being true to our feelings and what we think is very important. It makes reality harsh but yet easy to accept in some way.

A different perception taught me how to let go of things. It brought back unwanted memories along the way. It hurts and it will always have a shadow in a part of my mind but yet it's learning how to make the shadow fade that is most important. It isn't easy, heck, nobody ever said it was but at least taking baby steps in really starting fresh, moving on matters because God of all people gave me a chance to live in this world and to experience life.
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Memories that happened in the past is what happened. I can't change what happened then but I can change the present and the future. Because it matters to me and you. Because you matter to me and it is only fair for us both.

I guess it's time to just say.
Sorry people.

I'm ranting blindly and everything seems unrelated but these are all true feelings.

Unchained Melody

2008-10-13T18:55:00.006+08:00

a view of the world from another perspective.

Went through a fabulous weekend :). It started incredibly well on Saturday. Went to Genting for LP120's Wow Day. Had an amazing interpersonal day with orphans and HIV kids.

I adopted a kid for the day called Agustin. He's aged 4 plus. There were a few called Satiswaran, Imran and Aiman. But I could not take care of them all. I wonder how could parents abandon their child. Through sickness and everything moment they will be your child. Your own flesh and blood. After everything, these innocent kids, They still put a smile on their faces every morning. Such strong children.

I thank LP120 for a wonderful day spent with the kids. :) everything was worth it. Got back from Genting, and went to Putrajaya with cousins. Came home and stayed up till 4am. Sunday was filled with laughter with the same group again. Sushi, laughter, ice monster, laughter. Weekend was wonderful.

Boy, we went through another step,
We'll have more to come,
But all we need is togetherness,
And we will overcome it.
i miss you boy.
Love always

Welcome to Genting!

Everyone meet Agustin. :)

Arrival with LP120s.

Nicolette with kids.

Smiling faces.

face paintings. :)

so adorable!!

the happy bunch.

Lucky

2008-10-10T22:24:00.005+08:00

This song is stuck in my head :)
Been listening it for 2 days straight.
The tune is just so sweet.

Lucky - Jason Mraz and Colby Caillat

Do you hear me, Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky,
oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Light of My Life

2008-10-10T00:05:00.005+08:00

Looking back at how I was a year back and how I am now never fails to amuse me.
I lead a very very unhealthy lifestyle while in college.
Guess everyone has to go through their immature stage.
I'm not proud of what I have done before that made my parents worried and destroyed my health, but I'm glad I managed to stop it. Really glad or else I wonder how I would end up today. Hmmms.

Time is like a commet travelling. Like the speed of light. In a blink of an eye, the year is coming to an end. So many things happened this year, I've lost and I've gained. I grew and I understood better. Soon, I'll be entering my 2nd year of uni. Sighh. In another few eye blinks, I'll be graduating. Getting a job of my own and then starting my own life. I feel old now. NOOOO!!
I think I am going to spend the rest of my 19 year old life properly now before I turn big 20!! bahhh.

Shouldn't be so pessimistic. yeahhh. :) only makes me older.
goshh! this post was about the koala from the bf :).
gonna post up those cute pictures.
_____________________________________

Look at what my cute bf gave me. :)

Hahah it reminds me so much of him. It plays a very very cute song when i press the leaf :)

oh it came with a cute card too! :)

i am still wondering why he bought chewing gum for kids for me.

hahah but it taste good!! yummm

Thank you once again!! :)

You really made my day.

Disturbia

2008-10-09T17:59:00.001+08:00

I'm in the library now.
Printing out notes, exam papers and all,
Preparing for my finals.
GOshhhh! I seriously need to stop procrastinating,
and START STUDYING!!!
*using my heart and brains*
mmmm! yes i shall.

I have a sudden craving now.
:(
I crave for OldTown Kopitiam Curry Mee.
Oh noo! and Lemon Cincau.
Someone please save meeeeee.
I'm hungry.
*tummy grumbles*
sighhh!

Babbyyyy.

Angel of Mine

2008-10-08T21:20:00.004+08:00

2 months ago on this day,
I never would have imagine there would be US,

As in YOU and ME.

I still remembered that special moment when we became US.

And it never fails to put a smile on my face.

You've been with me every step and every path I needed to take ever since I was with you.
Never once would you leave me out. Everytime I wanted to share a joke or have someone to cry to, you were always there and you had your ways of comforting me. I've learnt so much from you in this period of time. We went through alot together and I'm glad we are still holding strong. You make me fall deeper for you every day, every thought of you makes my heart beat faster. Boy, you are one amazing person. Simple words from you are just the sweetest things one could ever imagine hearing. I never could ask for more. The best gift from you is your heart.

Happy 2months baby. :)
Boy, I love You.

waiting for you to have more silly moments like this. :)

Endless Love

2008-10-06T20:41:00.006+08:00

Finally I can proudly announce,

"No more assignments for ME!!!".

ahahaha. well at least for this sem. :)

Holidays are over,

A whole week of Accounting,

I am finally done.

Though finals is just around the corner,

But I just feel like smiling and laughing.

During the holidays,

I owned a new koala bear from the bf. :)

and got a cute little surprise from him.

So wonderful!!

Picture update soon.

Thank YOU for everything.

I'm addicted to the chinese drama,

"Moonlight Resonance",

HELP!!!! :(

Yummy creative story line.

But I don't have the cd with me.

i just realised how precious life can be,

appreciating every moment i have.

A twist in my story

2008-09-28T15:24:00.003+08:00

Today,
I feel suffocated, lost, numb, lonely, sad, frustrated,
As if I am alone in a dark space,
Screaming,
But no one can hear me,
No one knows where I am.
I can't go anywhere,
I can't breathe.
All I do is just sit there, crying.

I have a hunch I landed in Planet Depress.
I have been in such a lousy, foul mood lately.
Even chocolates did not cheer me up.
I miss laughing so hard till my tummy hurts.
I miss laughing over silly little things.
I miss giggling like a little girl,
who just shared a little secret.
I miss laughing over "I don't know too".

Childhood turned into adulthood.
It's ironic how people say adulthood is freedom.
When all we get piled on us is,
Responsibility, Maturity,
It seems that once we have reached a certain age,
We are suppose to be fulfill a certain criteria of adulthood.

I can't run away like a little girl anymore,
Running towards daddy when things don't go right,
No!
It's time to grow up.
It's time to be a woman and face everything that comes my way.
Time to face up and confront life.

Face reality.
Face life.
Face obstacles.

but right now,
I just want my Mickey.

Wait For You

2008-09-25T22:25:00.002+08:00

I know Raya is coming up.

And traditionally people would travel back to their hometowns.

If this should occur,

then why are the darn airlines all booked???

Whyy???

Mid-sem break means nothing to me now.

It's just a week where I am still suppose to study.

Finish up my freaking assignment.

Instead of actually relaxing and enjoying my holidays.

Someone please just give me a place!!

Please. :(

my heart beats faster everytime I think of YOU.

loving YOU from your shadows

2008-09-24T19:26:00.009+08:00

Dreams come unexpectedly.

We can't control what we want to dream.

But i've always taken my dreams as something,

my ability to see what's ahead of me.

I had the most wonderful dream after a long time today.

A dream that made me fall deeply in love.

YOU, my guardian angel.

The movie "A walk to remember",

Tells one a story of true love.

For some it may be true, for some it may be just fantasy.

For me it was a lesson.

To dance, to star gaze,

to love, to just be together.

I miss that with YOU.

________________________________________________________

After everything we have gone through,

I only wish for one thing.

Only Hope - Mandy Moore

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to writeover and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that you have

for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny, I'm giving you all of me

I want your symphony, Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs , I'm giving it back

<3>

only YOU know what it means.

2008-09-23T00:16:00.003+08:00

do hopes and dreams really come true?
do wishes really come true?
do prayers really come true?
what do i have to do to make it come true?
someone please tell me.
please please.

all i wish is only one thing.
nothing more.
i wont be greedy.
i just want one thing.

A grandmother's love

2008-09-22T20:05:00.003+08:00

Was grandma's birthday last Saturday.

Had family celebration in her favourite restaurant.

Right in the center of Cheras.

Beautiful family get together. :)

My whole perfect mom side of the family.

The bachelor cousin's bros.

All grandma's result :) except Andrew of course.

(Lilian's bf)

My lovely Li Lian and I.

grandma's grandchildren :)

I love you grandma.

I think we were drawfs. :)

Her smile with love.

Oh it's a family thing to have ALOT of pics taken

with several cameras every occasion :)

We were the kiddy table :)

2 aunts, grandma & grand-daughters :)

Cousin sisters. :)

The night ended with Nick, Eldon, Lilian, Andrew, Eilyn and I

with a disgusting midnight movie.

Note: DO NOT WATCH PATHOLOGY!!

___________________________________________________

________________

Dearest grandma,
You took care of me since I was a little baby.

You seen me grow and I can always talk to you about anything.

You showered me with love, care and good food :).
Even till today I love your cooking best.
Thank you so much for taking care of me.
I now know why I can be lame at times.
Coz it comes from you!! :)
I love you with all my heart grandma.
Happy Birthday once again!!

Lagenda

2008-09-22T03:04:00.005+08:00

if only you remember:

Kaulah satu-satunya,

di antara berjuta.

Insan istimewa.

Just like always,

You are the star that shines brightly among all.

Because you are the only one.

Just like your song.

The person I care for most does not love herself.

Why???

I saw you got hurt and I know you don't deserve it.

You deserve someone so much better.

You always put others before yourself.

I have seen you change so much.

I have seen you free and happy.

But now all I see is hurt in your eyes.

And it hurts me so much to see you this way.

I am not angry.

I am sad, and I am hurt.

Because I care for you.

And because I love you,

My dearest buddy.

Dare You to Move

2008-09-20T02:42:00.003+08:00

ever stopped and think about your life before?
like really look into it.
looking back all the years you have gone through.
what have you accomplished.
what do you plan to do next?

i suddenly have the urge to start a list.
a to-do list.
not a daily one but a to-do list in my life.

at least then i can keep track,
of how i am using my time fully in life.
having something to accomplish in life.
appreciating and taking advantage,
of every second i have living.

And it all starts with #1.

Thank YOU for loving me

2008-09-19T01:53:00.009+08:00

The person who came into my life,

The person who brought joys to my life,

The person who never failed to make me smile,

Thank you for being you :)

Always :)

Loved.

Ignorance is a bliss :)

2008-09-18T00:35:00.008+08:00

i now realise.

i now know.

why.

I believe

2008-09-18T00:35:00.007+08:00

No accident, how i accidently pressed this e-mail at this moment.

Was forwarded to me along time ago. But i never really read it.

Now I did

Birth Certificate shows that we were born
A Death Certificate shows that we died
Pictures show that we lived!
Have a seat . . . Relax . . . And read this slowly.
I Believe.
That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
It doesn't mean they do love each other.
I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over
The longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.
I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I Believe...
That we are responsible for what we do, No matter how we feel.
I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I Believe...
That my best friend and I, can do anything, or nothing and have the best time.
I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
I Believe..
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I Believe...
That it isn't always enough, to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but, we are responsible for who we become.
I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.
I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.
I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
I Believe...
'The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything.

Power of My goal

2008-09-18T00:35:00.006+08:00

Sometimes I hate having gut feelings and woman's instinct.
They just seem to make me upset.
I don't know why but all these feelings tend to be bad ones.

What makes it upsetting is not the feelings and instinct.
Is when the person you have the feeling about.
Says it's nothing or does not want to say it out.
Somehow it's worrying.

Then again.
People can't be forced to speak when they don't want to.
They have a choice

That's My Goal

2008-09-16T17:46:00.001+08:00

YOU:

You know where I come from
You know my story
You know why I'm standing here
Tonight
Please don't go
Don't be in a hurry
I'm here to make it clear
Make it right

Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
I've finally found that something
Worth reaching for

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Please don't go
You know that I need you
I can't breathe without you
Live without you
Be without you
Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
No more

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Well I won't stop believing
That we will be leaving together
So when I say I love you
I'll mean it forever and ever
Ever and ever

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
(Oh I'm ready)
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
(That's why I'm here babe)
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal
That's my goal

the StarS up in the skyyy

2008-09-16T13:17:00.005+08:00

I am currently missing all of this.

Torch Passing, LP Rally.

Buddy Pairs.

Imitating the coordinator.

Small group meetings.

Kelly Rally.

My dear Buddy :)

My brother. senior. Cheanu :)

Flying. ;)

Haha. Bontot competition.
This will never fail to make me laugh.

My LP114.

Starlight, Starbright

2008-09-16T12:24:00.006+08:00

It was mooncake festival last Sunday.

Didn't celebrate it with mooncakes and lanterns,

as how we should.

But had dinner with grandma as well as aunts.

The moon was supposedly to be bright and round that night,

Unfortunately it was raining,

All I could see was the dark gloomy sky.

Saw the moon last night though.

Still round and shinning ever so brightly.

:) Wonderful.

You know,

I realise how some people can be *mind my language* dumbwits.

YES! I knew that long time ago,

BUT now! I get more valid evidence to prove my point correct.

Something I don't stand proud proving I'm right.

But these dumbwits, Sighh! unfortunately I guess,

Have their brains in their asses instead of where it should belong.

THEIR HEAD!

I should probably pity them instead of get irritated by dumbwits who judge.

My All

2008-09-14T14:20:00.006+08:00

Mariah Carey - My All

I am thinking of you

In my sleepless solitude tonight

If it's wrong to love you

Then my heart just won't let me be right

'Cause I've drowned in you

And I won't pull through

Without you by my side

[Chorus:]

I'd give my all to have

Just one more night with you

I'd risk my life to feel

Your body next to mine

'Cause I can't go on

Living in the memory of our song

I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me

Imagining I'm looking in your eyes

I can see you clearly

Vividly emblazoned in my mind

And yet you're so far

Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

i miss this.

YOU.

The children of our future

2008-09-14T13:53:00.003+08:00

Our society nowdays.

Most of us are just so focused in.

Only caring about oneself.

That we hardly see any of this anymore.

We are just too busy to even care about the person next to us.

What more of those who are in need.

Ever have a thought about orphans, abandoned kids, disabled people?

When we are living in luxury.

What are they doing?

I'm not saying that everyone has to keep donating or help these people out.

It is not the concern of money,

instead a child taught me that it is,

the THOUGHT, LOVE and CARE that matters.

Something our society lacks.

Thought and concern.

Bless this children.

May they have a wonderful Raya this year.

and a memorable buka puasa dinner last night.

Self inflicit pain

2008-09-13T15:25:00.002+08:00

There are times in our life where people say we are a mirror image of either one of our parents. The phrase that goes "You are just like your father!" or "You are just like your mother!". We hear it often, if it's not the excatly words it would be similiar to it.
I've grown up to have "You are just like your father!" words screamed at me. It wasn't until today, I really question and have a thought about it. Am I really like my dad?
As I was growing up, I am known never to look like any of my family members, like an outcast of the family. Growing up was never easy. Not in my position.
Dad and I do share certain traits together. Traits that I am proud to have, so those are the ones that I look up to.
It's hard for others to understand what we think or feel sometimes especially people who are close to us.
Reading back my post. I felt that it is getting personal.

*I just lost my mood to post*
I'm scared.
I fear.
I'm worried.
and I brought it all upon myself.
Yes I did.

the Secret

2008-09-11T23:54:00.008+08:00

Hola! it's my 50th post.

and I am going to rant about my macroecons assignment.

Just bare with me.

While the sister is annoying me,

with her holiday in Brazil.

I am cracking my brains for my assignment.

Such a killer.

Bahhhh!

When did macroecons start getting so general????

Such an arse.

Oh btw.

My package finally got to you.

Hope you liked it. :)

Now! I need a stress release kit.

*edited*

After a long moment,

I'm still stuck with my macroecons.

I still haven't got my "spark" to type unstoppable,

With points flowing out just like that.

BAHHHHH!!

God, oh wise one.

Please shine upon me,

great wisdom.

I want my "spark" to come quick,

Then I can be unstoppable,

and I can sleep.

The greatest love of all

2008-09-09T21:39:00.004+08:00

Final exam timetable is out!

Goshh.

It's another month to go.

I'm so not ready for this.

Oh wells.

The sister is leaving to Brazil tonight,

I wished I was in her spot now,

Leaving for visiting.

Despite how much I hate sitting in the plane,

Despite how much I hate travelling long hours,

I wish I could be in the plane now,

Just to see you.

Just to be with you.

I'm down with the flu now.

Sucky virus.

It's been spreading around,

Attacking people.

And I caught it.

It's amazing how YOU could know,

what I was feeling,

when I didn't need to say anything.

YOU really amaze me.

It's your love

2008-09-08T22:18:00.004+08:00

Mickey,
He kept me happy everytime I am down,
He made me smile everytime I was crying,
He touched my heart eventhough he is not physically here.
He gave me the happiest moments this past month.
Together with minnie,
All I ever get is never ending laughter and happiness.

For that,
I thank Mickey so muchh.
I love my Mickey. :)

*laughs*
I just love cartoons and they never fail to make me smile.
Just like today again. :)
My all time favourite is of course Mickey and Minnie.
Besides donald, goofy, daisy and etc.
Disney oh disney!

For YOU only,
Tim McGraw & Faith Hill
-It's Your Love-

Dancin' in the dark, middle of the night
Takin' your heart and holdin' it tight
Emotional touch, touchin' my skin
And asking you to do what you've been doin' all over again
Oh its a beautiful thing, don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know what it is that won't let me go

It's your love it just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough and if you wonder about the spell I'm under,
oh it's your love

Better than I was, more than I am
And all of this happen by taking your hand
And who I am now is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together
I'm stronger than ever I'm happy and free

Oh it's a beautiful thing, don't think I can keep it all in
If you asked me why I've changed, all I gotta do is say your sweet name
It's your love it just does something to me it sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough and if you wonder about the spell I'm under,
It’s your love
If you wonder about the spell I'm under,
Oh, It's your love

A wonderful person

2008-09-08T21:51:00.003+08:00

You and I have gone through so much together.
Through ups and downs,
Through tears and laughter,
You went through with me.

You were always there for me,
No matter what time it was,
No matter where I was,
Just a call and you will be there,
Right next to me,
Just to give me a hug.

Your forever giving,
Taught me so much,
You taught me to love,
You taught me it is okay to trust again.
Because of YOU buddy,
I am able to trust.

Dearest buddy,
Always remember I am here for you,
To hug you, to be there for you,
Through all your toughest and happiest moment.

You will always have my love.
You will always be my buddy.
Now let me into your space, to just love you.
To just be with you.
I love you, my dear buddy Foo :)

the most giving, loving, passionate person, MY buddy!! :)
I'm so proud of you.

L.I.F.E

2008-09-07T05:39:00.006+08:00

How did L.I.F.E get so complicated?

The last I remember was,

Me laughing my heads of during Secondary One.

After that, it's all a blur.

How did LIFE get so screwed up?

As we grow older,

I realise things tend to become a puzzle.

We find pieces of our puzzle daily,

One by one slowly putting them together.

There is one incident,

That happened to me.

I had some of the pieces,

but it never became a puzzle.

It wasn't until today,

The puzzle became a blur picture,

A picture I didn't want it to appear,

Even the slighest bit.

Even up till now,

I refuse to look at the picture,

I feel like detaching it all.

It is now again,

I sit and ponder over my question,
When did L.I.F.E get so complicated?

How did L.I.F.E get so messed up?

How did things get complicated?

All I can think of now is

Life can be a b**** sometimes.

And right now,

I am just at the early phase of it.

Unanswered Prayer

2008-09-07T01:36:00.003+08:00

I now know.
The bad vibes I was dwelling on,

this past few days.

I now know what it was.

It was that again.

Somehow time just ain't enough is it?

I thought it would be.

But I'm afraid,

I thought wrongly.

When will it stop?

These feelings are not welcomed into my life.

Not this chapter of my life.

Enough is enough.

I'm getting sick of it.

Ignorance is a bliss.

Yeahh. That's what I keep telling myself.

But I don't think it's working very well.

Dramas in life.

But somehow I think this is

a totally overrated drama.

I should stop ranting now.

Yes I think I should.

More than words

2008-09-04T22:00:00.006+08:00

Look what came in the mail today!!

*huge smile*

I was so surprised,

When I saw the handwriting,

I couldn't stop giggling and laughing.

lala dum dee dum :)

Thank YOU baby

YOU made me smile so much!!

So sweet of YOU.

hahahah :)

hearts.

so simple, yet so sweet.

It's the thought that counts.

After that being all hyped up,
Went for branch with the cousin, her bf and the sis.

While these three wonderful human tried on their shoes.

I was left carrying their handbags,

Like heavy big handbags. Sighh!!

But still I was happy so I didn't mind.

Oh while waiting for Lilian and the bf to come,

Sister and I snapped some photos.

A great day with these funny people!!

YOU are the best!
I heart YOU

YOU truly made my day

2008-09-04T02:28:00.003+08:00

I don't know why I'm such an emo person rytee noww,

BUT

i choose and plan to

blame it all on the medicines!

HA!

darn medicines.

messing with my mood.

Just when I needed you most

2008-09-04T00:00:00.009+08:00

I wish I was there to tell you,

Everything will be alright,

That everything will be okay,

*hugs*

My heart calls for you,

Tears swell up in my eyes,

When I know I can't be there,

I'm longing for you,

I miss YOU.

Crying alone feels lonely,

Memories of you being here,

Just to comfort,

And ensure everything will be alright.

Runs through my mind,

I wish I was by your side,

I miss YOU.

I pray, I hope,

I wish that GOD will take away all the tears,

and fill your life with laughter,

Only happiness.

Only for you.

Just when I needed you most

-Katie Melua-

*edited:

You packed in the morning

I stared out the window

And I struggled for something to say

You left in the rain without closing the door

I didnt stand in your way

Now I miss you more

Than I missed you before

And now where Ill find comfort, God knows

.............

cause I need you more

Than I needed before

And now where Ill find comfort, God knows

.............

Just when I needed you most

.............

Now I love you more

Than I loved you before

Just when I needed you most

will YOU be with me always?

All My Life

2008-09-03T11:43:00.006+08:00

Was on my way home from Johor,

The view was just breath taking.

Sunset reminds me of that day.

That day you left,

It reminds me of YOU.

I'm feeling drowsy and weak now :(

Blardy medicines are not helping!

Sometimes I wonder why do we even take medi?

When all it ever does is make us sleep,

AND make us feel worse.

Had sleepless nights on Sunday and Monday,

All thanks to Bus.Law assignment.

Was the 1st time in this sem,

I felt I was so productive.

even El got so productive till she wore glasses!

don't u think she's so cute with it?

haha!

I keep having this uneasy feeling,

I don't know what it is,

But it's not a very very good one.

You know how sometimes people say a woman's instinct

can be quite accurate?

Well, I hope mine isn't.

Coz if it was, then all those bad vibes will just come true.

YOU're wonderful

Sweetest memories

2008-09-01T01:11:00.002+08:00

I'm so HAPPY ryte now!!

I can't stop smiling!!

:)
MICKEY MADE ME HAPPY.

Thank YOU.

hehehe.

as requested by YOU.

Daddy Dearest

2008-08-30T19:02:00.007+08:00

I have never been the greatest daughter.
But you have been the greatest dad,

a girl could ask for.

I'm sorry for the things I did wrong.

I'm learning to be the best for you.

I may never be perfect but I'm trying to be.

Thank you daddy,

For everything you have provided me with,

For everything you have given me.

You gave me love, you gave me care,

You gave me dreams, you gave me hope,

You gave me luxury, you gave me comfort,

You gave me a home, you gave me security,
You gave me everything I asked for sometimes even more,

But most of all,

YOU GAVE ME LIFE!

Your sacrifice oh so big,

I can't compare it with anything,

A parent you are, with a great big heart,

To have everyone in my life into yours too.

You tease me about boys, life and everything under the sun,

You never fail to make me smile with your jokes,

Though sometimes they are lame,

But yet the laughter you have after you told them.

Is just so ever fulfilling.

You are the greatest dad,

That I cannot deny,

For that I thank the Lord,

giving me a chance to be someone special in your heart,

someone by the title "daughter".

I love you very much my dear daddy,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

love always,

Your daughter

PiCtuRes

grandparents, ulc rodney & tina, sis, mum, dad.

grandpa, grandma, me, dad,

jie, ilyn, mum

grandpa, dad, grandma

ilyn and dad

dad and I

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Once more daddy dearest!!

When YOU look me in the eyes

2008-08-30T15:49:00.006+08:00

Greetings from Johor!

Finally i'm back at dad's hometown,

just for the weekend. :)

and

to celebrate dad's bday here.

Saw grandparents again.

As well as relatives.

I have a new cousin sis,

that I didn't know of.

Talk about BIGGG family.

Oh goodie!! :)

Yummy Yummy food from grandma.

& yummy noodles from Johor.

I feel fat now.

Love is

2008-08-29T20:46:00.004+08:00

Love is patient, Love is kind,

It does not envy, it does not boast,

It is not proud, It is not rude,

It is not self-seeking,

It is not easily angered,

It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,

but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects,

always trusts,always hopes,

always perseveres.

Love bears all things,

believes all things,

hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.

Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8

"i love you, that's why"

"i love you and that's all that matters"

I miss you

Dangerous

2008-08-28T21:02:00.003+08:00

Finally.

Mid-terms are over.

Assignment handed it.

There is still business law left thoughh.

Having long weekend this week.

Thanks to Merdeka and replacement holsss.

But tough luck, assignment got in the way of having fun.

Daddy's new toy came today.

Goshhh! and I was having fun in it.

daddy took a pic of me, driving :)
it was fun!!

I'm beginning to believe,

I'm beginning to prove,

That everything is/was worth it,

Because I said so.

So sorry people!

Ignorance is a bliss.

Just as long as I am happy.

I don't care anymore.

PLUSSS!! Mickey mouse makes me happy.

Just it's sillyness and just mickey himself.

Haha!

Addiction to cartoons.

I have no idea why,

But this song is in my head.

Hahah!

Akon - Dangerous

Girl, I can notice ,

But to notice you,Noticing me,

From across the room I can see it .

And can't stop myself From looking

And noticing you Noticing me,

Watch out I've seen her type before

That girl is so dangerous

That girl is a bad girl

I've seen her type before

She's so dangerous

That girl is so dangerous

That girl Is a bad girl, yeah

2008-08-26T21:00:00.003+08:00

I wish the rain would come,

To wash away my tears,

To wash away the sadness,

To wash away all the

pain, hurt, and sorrow,

To hide me,

So that no one can see my tears.

Rainy days

2008-08-26T11:36:00.005+08:00

I'm so freaking *^#%$@ upset and angry.

*censored words*

I don't want to know anything about it!

I just don't want to be right here,

Right now!

STOP LETTING ME KNOW!!!!

It's hurting me very muchhh.

I don't want to know.

I just want to forget about it.

No more please I beg u???

I don't want to cry.

I don't want to hurt.

I just want my buddy now.

I just want to hug her and cry.

I just want to cry so much now.

Beijing Olympics 2008

2008-08-25T17:32:00.006+08:00

After 16 days,

of having the Olympics to watch on Astro,

Yesterday was the closing ceremony,

And it ended well.

China really did a great job,

Preparing for the Olympics overall,

I'm so proud to be a Chinese. :)

The only Malaysian who got a silver medal for M'sia.

Was of course Lee Chong Wei.

Haha! Brilliant.

Got Malaysia on the Olympic list.

I got shocked with world records broken,

Especially the athletics events,

Goshhh!

Never knew anyone could run that fast,

Wonder if anyone in future

will be as fast as 8 seconds?

Hahaha! ;)

After having Olympics to look forward to watch,

I now have to get used not pressing channel 800+ and so forth,

To view the Olympic live anymore.

This 16 days passed so slowly,

It seemed like it was a very long time,

but it was just a short while,

16 days that filled my life with laughter,

and excitement as well as happiness,

I thank YOU!

Oh, and the song:

"Beijing, Beijing Wo Ai Beijing"

is stuck in my head.

Im humming that tune up till now.

Talk about being proud.

All about loving you

2008-08-25T10:37:00.005+08:00

This morning,

I woke up with trouble in my mind,

Suddenly I felt all the stress,

Assignments and mid-terms.

As if that wasn't bad enough,

I got an unexpected msg from a stranger.

Thanks for making my day worse.

Thanks for adding annoyance to my stress.

Sighh. One moment I'm happy,

The next I feel so crappy.

Life's really like a roller coaster.

One moment I'm at the top,

Screaming and enjoying at the peak,

The next moment,

*DUSHH*

I'm plunging down right to the suckiest moment.

SIGGGHHHHH!!

I just can't help but to sigh now.

While studying my business law.

SIGGGGHHHH!!

Looking on the bright side :)

I get to see YOU after one chapter

of that hideous business law.

"Thank YOU for loving me,
For being my eyes,
When I couldn't see,
For parting my lips,
When I couldn't breathe,
Thank YOU for loving me."
-Bon Jovi-

A love like ours will never end

2008-08-23T14:15:00.004+08:00

I suddenly feel so blessed.

Every morning I wake up, With a smile on my face.

Every night before I sleep, I have a smile on my face.

Despite every little thing that goes wrong during the day,

I face it with a smile on my face.

Goshh.

What more could I ask for?

:). Nothing.

And it's all because of YOU.

To:

my amazing daddy.

I heart you very much.

My love will get you home

2008-08-21T22:34:00.003+08:00

The sister is back in town for good!!!

*no scratch that. IN MALAYSIA! for good*

HAHA! Joyful joyful.

My house is now finally back to it's normal environment.

All the laughters, arguing, teasing, "fighting".

My complete home.

So when sister came back.

Li Lian, Erin, Chih Wei and I surprised her at home.

I suddenly feel the stress of studying coming to me again.

Mid-terms. Assignments. Finals. Studyyyy.

Looking at the bright side everyday though.

At least I'm starting to cope with uni life now.

and I have YOU to always put a smile on my face.

"If we perceive things not as a problem but rather as opportunities for learning,

we can experience a sense of joy and well-being when the lessons are learned.

We are never presented with lessons until we are ready to learn them."

-Gerald G. Jampolsky-

Birthday shoutout!!

2008-08-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

OOI CHI KHAN!!!!!! :)

You are 19 today!!!

And I hope you are having a good time on ur birthday!!

hahahah! get drunk but don't be pei hai ok???

sorry i don't have pictures of u. :(

May all ur wishes come true and ur shuffling get better.

Have a blasting birthday!!!!

Together Forever

2008-08-18T18:57:00.003+08:00

Week 6 of uni is here,

Time is passing so fast,

And I'm freaking worried bout my business law.

Goshhh.

Marketing, Macroecons mid-term is next week.

Accounting assignment due next week.

Business Law assignment due the following.

Goshhh.

Why is time passing by so fast????

Oh btw. My family is finally coming home tomorrow!

Joy oh Joy! :)

My sister is back for good!

HAHAHAH!

Heard this song over the radio today.

It's an oldie but it's nice. :)

If there's anything you need

All you have to do is say

You knew you satisfy everything in me

We shouldn't waste a single day

So don't stop me falling

It's destiny calling

A power i just can't deny

It's never changing

Can't you hear me, i'm saying

I want you for the rest of my life

* together forever and never to part

Together forever we two

And don't you knowI would move heaven and earth

To be together forever with you

If they ever get you down

There's always something i can do

Because i wouldn't ever wanna see you frown

I'll always do what's best for you

There aint no mistaking

It's true love we're making

Something to last for all time

It's never changing

Can't you hear me, i'm saying

I want you for the rest of my life

(* repeat)

So don't stop me falling

It's destiny calling

A power i just can't deny

It's never changing

Can't you hear me, i'm saying

I want you for the rest of my life

(* repeat)

If you just realise

2008-08-14T22:48:00.005+08:00

Sometimes in life,

I guess we can never always have what we want,

No matter how much we want it or demand it,

If it's not ours then it's not meant to be.

I was staring out the window,

On my way home earlier,

Over looking the far view of KL from one of the hills nearby my house,

And I noticed how beautiful KL was.

The glowing KL Tower and Twin Towers,

Shinning it's bright lights into the sky around it,

The colour lights of the city,

Just beautiful.

I have never felt so peaceful and comfortable at that moment,

I shed a tear or two,

But then decided to just free my mind and smile.

I missing jogging. I miss running.

I used to vent my feelings into running.

Running as fast as I could.

Not letting anyone/anything catch up with me.

Not letting myself feel pain. hurt, sadness.

Not letting myself feel joy, happiness and laughter.

I guess that was my way of avoiding.

I wonder,

WHEN will I be able to face it?

WHEN will I stop avoiding it?

WILL I have the courage to face it alone?

HOW will I be when I face it?

One day, one day and I will know how.

Dear Lord,

Please tell me how?

Whisper to me your words of wisdom.

A moment like this

2008-08-12T15:24:00.004+08:00

I can't describe how I feel right now,

Maybe I can but I just won't.

All I want now is to,

Cover the sheets over my head,

Cry my heart out,
Scream out loud,

And just leave.

Avoiding does not help,

But neither is facing it,

People judge and people talk,

It is now I know,

Nothing we ever do,

Is right in everyone's eyes.

I miss my family.

Surprise!!!

2008-08-10T21:22:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was Phoebe's surprise party!

In the curve, the apartment.

Chui Yi, Elicia and I decided to surprise our dearest Phoebe,

since it was her 20th birthday on 2nd August,

Overall the plan worked out well,

There were delays here and there,

But the facial expression of Phoebe was priceless,

And plusssss she was so happy,

Everything was worth it. :)

uneasyness, awkwardness.

tears in the heart.

Phoebe's signature pose :)
whyyy??

Many thanks to Chui Yi for the planning,

Without you we wouldn't be able to call her uni and high school friends.

why??

Dearest Phoebe,

Hope you had a great time!!! :)

Happy Birthday once again.

Love you loads,

XOXOXOXO

Can I be yours???

2008-08-08T00:22:00.009+08:00

08.08.08

Mickey & Minnie.
You made it happen. Lovess. :)

When I was a little girl,

I decided that I wanted special things to happen on

07.07.07 and 08.08.08.

08.08.08 is today.

and my special thing did happen.

all because of you.

and the Beijing Olympics starts today! :)

YOU are the one,

That I've been searching for,

My whole life through.

(Toni Gonzaga)

My heart belongs to YOU

because YOU made it happen. :)

Random moments:

Found this pic on the internet.

So sweet don't you think?

Wonder how much effort did it take to carve this? :)

JOys!!!

Fall For You

2008-08-06T19:07:00.002+08:00

Marketing lecture.

A veryyyy entertaining class.

Seriouslyyyy.

Mr. lecturer put up a picture on the screen.

The picture was an intimate couple in a jar.

Goshhhh. :)

We were suppose to see 9 dolphins but most of us didn't

and that proved that we all had corrupted minds.

Hahah! brilliant infomation I got during lecture.

As if we all didnt know.

Thanks for the brilliant knowledge you gave us Mr. Lecturer.

the picture

he made us all stand up. haha :)

i found this pic in one of El's slide. Doesn't it look like her??

PC wong. Ahaha! Cheeksmore.

my brilliant annoying sister's artwork. :( sigghhhhh

colourless life

without you.

Blessed Child

2008-08-06T18:13:00.004+08:00

What does family mean to you??

According to the dictionary.com family means:

"any group of persons closely related by blood,

as parents, children, uncles, aunts, and cousins".

It wasn't until today,

When I was watching I'm not stupid too,

I learnt the real meaning FAMILY,

Father

And

Mother

Love

You

Goshhh.

A simple, pure and true meaning that hits the heart.

I'm so glad I have a chance to say family to my parents.

I'm grateful to have them here with me,

to love me, to care for me and just be my parents.

I would never trade anyone for them,

For in 6 billion people there is in this world,

I have them as my parents.

My pure faith given by God,

My destiny designed by the Lord.

Thank you dear Lord,

For I am truly blessed for the gift You have bestowed upon me.

I am truly blessed for, You have chosen the best couple,

to shower me with unconditional love.

Thank you dear Lord,

For giving me a chance to be their child.

Daddy and Mummy,

I love you both very much.

FAMILY!

When I grow up

2008-08-05T23:06:00.005+08:00

Tuesday!
My only day in the week without classes.
I did nothing productive today.
All I did was sleep the whole day,
and laze around the house.
Spent time laughing with my sister and mummy.

Ei Leen here I'm giving examples here btw
1) it's about the epic movie about the pirates singing the song. And unfortunately, I have to bare my sister's singing..which is sooo the horrible
2) owh she being a messenger for me and mommy xD inside joke *grins*
3) owh there's no no.3 because Megan claims that she forgotten. How forgetful. =\ Btw, she's addicted to Pussycat Dolls = p

And now shes being soo the lame wants to post before 12. Ey Megan! I'm sure your going to get bored of it laa..I mean people will get bored reading ur entries because everyday your schedule it's the samee..In short, your a boring person xP okie I'm done xD

So yeah.
In the end I didn't get to post before 12.
My sis decided to entertain u guys with her words.
And I got caught up on the phone. :)
JOYS!!!

You are not alone

2008-08-04T19:28:00.007+08:00

Heyyyysss!! :)

Weekend was good for me.

My saturday started by getting 9 am,

wake up call from my dear sis.

asking me to go to her school to support her.

School had a carnival to raise funds for

cctv camera and some stuff.

Don't get why does the students

have to work for it though.

My sis was busy at her game stall when i got there.

so i was left alone to walk around.

Been a longgggg time since i was there. (bout 2 years??)

saw some teachers and some juniors.

I kind of miss the feeling of being in school.

All those memories on the field, prefect room, classroom.

Goshhhh! :(

After that carnival thing,

I went to Pc fair with no other than my "parents" (Shaun and El),

These two people can never fail to make me laugh with their gestures and talk,

Took us awhile to actually get to Pc fair since had to stop by Versace to check out stuff.

I found a charm for the charm bracelet i really like from there. :)

Rushed of to the convention center and browsed around,

We didn't really get anything there,

But the next day, I went back to get my laptop!! :)

Joysss!!!

My tablet laptop. (thank you daddy love!!)

Now i can doodle all i want with my own handwriting.

My weekend was basically spent

Laughing, sleeping, driving, fighting, rushing for assignment and studying.

i wish u were here with me.

9 more weeks till finals.

Goshhh! :(

I'm so worried for my business law exam la woiiii.

i've always been talking bout my "parents"

so figured i should intro u to them. :)

my daddy Shaun & mummy Elicia

and this is my fav pic of them :)

so sweet ryteeeee????

why aren't u here??

Shaun was trying to catch me in my emo mood!

Wahahah :) (inside joke)

There you'll Be

2008-08-01T22:34:00.008+08:00

looking at this view while waiting for tute to start,
makes me think alot. It relaxes me but it makes me think.
complicated mind!! :)
It reminds me of alone, dark, cold and mickey mouse.
I miss mickey mouse and minnie mouse.
Call me childish but i do. :(

Today marks the end of Week 3 of classes.
Woke up late today. Laze around the house for awhile.
Then filled in all the application form for credit transfer.
Did a bit of homework and started on assignments as well as study.
Then headed to Uni for macroecons tute.
And here my day turned sour but still it was full of laughter. :)

My daddy Shaun called me during class asking me for Hann-Lun's signature.
I was like "huh??". OK.
Hann-Lun signed one of my card before so yeah.
I drove to Metropolitan just in time for Shaun to settle all of Hann-Lun's procedure for withdrawal.
Hassle Hassle and all. Everything was done.
Aha! while walking back to the car,
I realised I lost my car keys.
We looked everywhere,
every corner of the place we been to but still I couldn't find it.
Alas, I had to go home to get the spare key.
I mean how can my keys just possibly go missing like that?
And the best thing is, both of us can't recall if I was holding my keys.
GOSH!! but either way, thank god for spare keys! :)

Thank you Daddy Shaun!! :).
SO sweet la this guy, he went looking everywhere for my keys.
And never complained.
Now I'm gonna side you to bully Elicia ady ok?? :)
Hahaha! But either way, I thank you for your time.
and hope u win your 4d number too. sheesh.

Weekends are up! :)
PC fair started already and I'm gonna go browse around this time.
Feels weird coz usually I'll be working there.
Nice try for a change. :)
Assignments due.
Marketing submission how la woiiii????
You made my day. :)

by the wayyy, my buddy foo bought me a very cute key chain. so sweetttt.
Thanks buddyyy. Now I can replace it with all my lost key chainnnns with my car keyy. :)
Sighhhhh!

Song of Expression

2008-07-31T13:11:00.005+08:00

You know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh And I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.
You came along just like a song
And brightened my day,
Who'd've believe that you we're part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away.
And now you know I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh and I can't sing,
I'm finding it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If you only knew what I"m going through,
I just can't smile.
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find.
Well I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me.
And you see, I Can't Smile Without You,
I Can't Smile Without You,
I can't laugh And I can't sing,
I'm findin' it hard to do anything.
You see, I feel sad when you're sad,
I feel glad when you're glad,
If You only knew what I'm going through,
I just Can't Smile Without You.

If any of you watched HellBoy 2,
You'll know about this song.
It's old but yet ever so meaningful.
It just speaks for itself by it's lyrics.

Stay Close, Don't Go

2008-07-30T21:25:00.005+08:00

Heyyyyy. :)
I realised that I certainly do not have any social life nowadaysss.
Since I'm posting up a new post mostly everyday.

Gossshhhh.
And the best thing is I'm always posting new entries when I can't sleep.
I hardly sleep anymore nowadays.
Everyday mostly 2-3 hours max.
I keep getting nightmares and thoughts just keep running through my mind.
Sighhhhh.
Wootttt!! I miss my sleep weii.
i miss having you to keep me safe.
Today was as usual a long day of tutes and lectures.
I woke up late (8am) automatically since I fell asleep at 5am.
Rushed to class and made it in time at 9! :) Traffic loved me today.
I'm glad. Haha!
Tute and lectures are somehow just like normal.
Oh waittt. Marketing lecture was interesting. My lecturer couldn't stop showing sexual advertisments. :) what a way to catch my attention. Haha.

Went through boring moments laughing and talking non-stop with El.
What would I do without her to tease?? Goshhh.
My lecture and tutorial days will be so boringgg.

cheryl caught us doin this and was making a big fuss

Blooper of the day:
I was on the phone under the blazing, glaring hot sun.
Decided to go sit on a chair nearby when I nearly fell into the drain with the chair.
That was damn kau humiliating!! Everyone was staring when I screamed. :(
Sheesh! What's up with me la????

a bimbo-itic moment

2008-07-29T22:59:00.006+08:00

I lost my bimbo-itic virginity on Mondayyy. Woottt!
I have never felt what was it like to be a bimbo until business law class tutorial.
Classes commenced as usual buttt this time it was differenttt.
We each had to take turns to answer the questionsss.
Everything wentt smoothlyyy until Elicia (bimbo 1) answered a VERY!!
*may i highlight it again VERYYYY!!* obvious question wronglyy.
Haha! u should've seen the faces of the others in the class.
They were whispering as if she committed a crime. :( darnnn.
As for me, (bimbo 2) I was explaining the one of the cases,
When my dear tutor asked what was the court's decisionnn.
I said "the damage was forseenable"
butttt NOO!! she heard wronglyyy
hence giving her a chance to shoottt kau me in the face,
"how do you read your cases??" GOSH!!!
i couldn't feel more stupid at that time.
I asked El if I said the right thing and she agreedddd.
BTW1200 makes me feel so bimbo-itic for the first time.
Shoott! :(.
El and I are so determineddd to studyy law so kau hardd now,
to shoottt kau the tutor again.
And plusss I don't want to feel like a bimbo again!! :(

oh btw, my dear El had her haircut. :)
She looks super cute emphasizing her "prominant cheeks" even more.
HAHAH! C.I.A (inside joke).

And I finally learn how to input a Cbox into my blog!
after asking my sis for help that is :)
Brilliant Megannn *pats on head* Righttt.
Enough of bimbo momentsss :).
That won't happen againn. Time to studyyy.

my versace perfume :) after so long i finally remembered I haventt post it up
great joyyy. hahah my love

p/s: I realised guys are choosier than girls when it comes to shopping. Can't decide what they want. Veryyy choosyyyy. Goshhh. you know who you are.

after a long sunglasses hunt, we found the right one you know who wanteddd.

Right here waiting for you

2008-07-28T08:44:00.006+08:00

Yesterday I had dinner with my dear buddy, Foo.
After such a long time *a week plus* of not talking/seeing her, I finally saw her.
Ohhh how i miss this womann so muchhhh.

We went to Tree House in Damansara for a drink and prior to that Strawberry fields for a meal.
Just seeing her makes me cry and somehow whatever emotions I am feeling she knows.
I can't help but to tell her everything, things I don't usually tell anyone but myself.
Having her presence just makes me feel so comfortable.
Sometimes I wonder if she has half my brains in her that she knows me so well.
After having a talk with her, my mind cleared up better and I start to see things clearer.
I realised there are always a good and bad side in every event that has happened so why should I focus on the bad part instead of the good?

Sigh! I'm just so negative sometimes *correction! Not negative. It's realistic* (according to Elicia).
But then again, I'll always have my dear buddy, Elicia, Shaun, family, Hann to keep me looking at the bright side. That I appreciate very much! :)

Hope you are doing well over there in Melb. :)
i miss you a lot! you make me smile everyday.

Aha! another attempt to post a happy entry failed.
What's wrong with me la?? Woiiii!
But then again, at least I am posting up something. :)
Cherrios! Gotta go hand in marketing assignment. EEYuck!
Have a great day ppl!

I can't smile without you

2008-07-27T12:12:00.003+08:00

Classes have commenced for 2 weeks now.
Amazing how times flies.
In another 11 more weeks, I'll be in the examination hall again.
Sitting for my finals, studying my ass off.
11 weeks. That's gonna pass me by like the wind.

I miss you.

I've never actually once sit down and really look around me.
To appreciate the things and people around me.
It is always when a person is soon to leave, he/she will only notice the beauty of their surroundings.
Not knowing how many more months have I got left here,
I started noticing and appreciating everything around me.
I love my home, I love my family, I love my friends, I love everything that I have.
Everything I'm doing now I appreciate so much because it is then I will never know when I can have it again.
It sounds depressing but then again look on the bright side!
Appreciate the existing moment for we will never know when we can have a 2nd chance again.
We can never predict what is going to happen next.

After everything that has happened, I still can't forget bout it.

I have no idea why my posts lately sound depressing and sad.
I just can't find myself to post happy thoughts up.
Another 2 more weeks and my dearest sis will be back from Aussie!!! :)
I can't wait. I miss her so much.

Till then. Have a great week ahead! :)
Megan

Mind Wonders

2008-07-25T23:01:00.002+08:00

How can something so wrong feels so right all along?

Sometimes I wonder if I have done the right thing.
There are times in life we made stupid mistakes but this time I'm not sure.
I'm just lost now. I don't know what to feel anymore.
How can I go on? How did things all get so complicated?
I just want to hide under my blanket and wish that everything will go away.

did i do the right thing?
Was it my fault?
I just don't know anymore.

baby sister

2008-07-24T20:55:00.004+08:00

1992 was the year you came into my life,
like a bubbly bundle of happiness,
you filled my life with joy,
growing up with you was wonderful,
sure we did have our ups and downs,
but I always knew that our love was there.

There were times I wonder what you're thinking,
Times I wonder how can I love you more,
Sometimes I even wonder how can I be there for you,
And sometimes I think you don't even need me.
And it just hurts inside to know that you are growing up.
No longer needing your sister here to be there for you.

As we grow up together,
As times passes us by,
I just wished that you won't grow so fast,
So that I can always take care of you,
So that you will always remain as my baby sister,
So that you will always be mine.

I'm proud of you seeing that you are capable of handling yourself,
But it also saddens me to know that,
You are sometimes more mature than me,
The way you think and the way you act,
But yet sometimes you act differently,
But again I know you are wonderful because you are you.

Baby sister you will always be in my heart,
The sadness in your heart I want to take it all away,
I just want to fill you with all my happiness I have,
Fill you with everything you deserve,
For all I want is just for you to be happy.

Another few months I will be the one who will hurt you,
I can't bring myself to turn my back against you,
and just walk away.
But no matter where I am,
I will always be here for you to listen to you,
To cuddle you and hug you and let all you worry go away,
I miss having you my baby sister,
I miss being who I am with you.
I'm sorry if I've hurt you.
All I want is to just love you.
My dearest Ei Leen Wong,
I love you with all my heart.

Megan
your jie jie.

heartbeats.

2008-07-23T18:00:00.002+08:00

today is the day my heart finally shows emotions.

A day where my heart cries and my eyes tear.

After 1 year, here I am in the airport again sending another person away.

Another person that is close to me.

Tell me why again I shouldn't hate the airport???

I just don't want to go there :(

I missing you before you leave.

in love with dancing

2008-07-17T22:04:00.004+08:00

My first week of uni is coming to an end. *WOHOOO!*
1 week down and 12 more weeks to go before summer school.
now why did i just made summer school sound fun?? i have no idea. :(.
must be some screw in my brains turning my emotions up and down.
Uni overall was not as bad as i thought it would be.
I get to see my chui yi, leon and ex-ICPUers over there so I pratically feel quite at comfy.
Despite having a not so beautiful timetable.
Overall i should just be glad i have a few ppl to accompany me during classes.

My dear mummy, Elicia finally drives to Uni on her own this week!
*WOOT* celebration time :). Im so happy for her.
After all the screaming, laughing and nagging, this girl is good and ready to go.
HAHAHAHAH! but I still think she needs a GPS to help her with her directions.

Weekends are coming up.
My family is leaving me for cameron trip with everyone else and ulc kevin.
sigh! i miss that ulc from korea. :(
all his gestures of "in korea..." hahahha. guess i'll be missing that out.

time to study now. time to watch step up again.
i miss those times.

oohhh! btw i got my versace perfume already :) very old news but still im glad!

"what you think sometimes i wonder
and what you feel what is going on between us
and what manifests what is it all about?

is always a match"

megan :)

Beautiful Monday

2008-07-14T11:29:00.005+08:00

baby face

SIGH!!! classes starts today!! another new semester, another new chapter.

u'll always be a part of me,

im part of u indefinitely.

Contradicting Words

2008-07-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

Uni starts in another few more days. to be precise Monday, July the 14th.
My holidays just passed by me like the gentle wind.
Sometimes I just wonder if I have done enough to make this holiday a fulfilling one.
I haven't been catching up with ppl like ryan, chui yi and all.
I'm so sorry! I made a promise but I didn't fulfill it.
I can just feel the stress of uni commencing all over again.
That would mean more assignments, finals and more homework.
No more lazing around at home.
Somehow this semester I am more determined to work harder.
Decided to do summer school.
Then transfer over to Australia.
How do I do that?? I don't think I'm smart enough to transfer over there. :(
What am i to do???? Now i feel like just going over there.
Positive megan. Be positive! :)
Someone once told me that we should never let the past dictated our feelings instead we should just keep going forward.
Think I'm going to just listen to that.

counting the days we spent together,
looking back at what we did,
anxious about the day u are leaving,
just dont want it to come.

With You

2008-07-01T12:59:00.006+08:00

woohooo!! been back from Phuket for a few days now. Phuket was great fun especially the time spent with Li Lian and Su Ann. All the Road Trips, Map readings, Snorkelling, Picture Poses. Ahhh. great pleasure! :) The weather over there wasn't as inviting as we've expected, the same goes to the shopping. but the food was superb! *yummy* and also the hotel room *ahhh. heaven!* will update about Phuket later on.

after being back, i realised there was less than a month and class will resume again. many who i know would be leaving/left abroad to study. and now a feeling inside me questions if i should be going too? feelings aside. Do i really want to go? Arrangements to go is being prepared by daddy dearest to have everything ready. A few more months, just a few more months and i'll have to decide. Mummy dear is teaching me how to be independant. signs of a decision being made. everything will come to an end in a few more months. It'll be then my decision will be made. the answer, the final word that answers all these questions to the feeling I'm having.

every moment spend being sad would mean every moment lost being happy.

spending time with u
brought joys and laughter to me
coincidence between us
wished we knew one another sooner

2008-06-24T01:45:00.002+08:00

imagine in another 11 hours.. i'll be on the plane on my way to PHUKET!! :) joys...
with lilian and su ann.. wonderful.. a cousin holiday trip..
the beautiful sunset, the breezy wind, the white sand!! OH JOYFUL JOYFUL!!

now what i'm left to do is...*Ahem* to Pack!
the thing i dread to do..hahah!!

teardrops on my guitar

2008-06-20T23:28:00.006+08:00

it's been awhile since i've logged on to my blog. been really busy studying for finals, preparing for finals as well as in between *Ahem* ICPU prom.
had finals for 3 weeks but it was only took 4 days.

6th june - Management
12th june - Business Stats
13th june - Economics
17th june - Accounting A

so that leaves me with 11th june to attend the ICPU prom in Sheraton, Subang. This year's prom seemed a little distanced for me as i only knew a few of the people from ICPU from my sem and the sem after me, meaning there were many new faces. Lectures seemed the same to me. the old ones were there but there were new faces too! I have to admit though that this year's prom programme was better than last years. the Main thing was the MUSIC was way better. so that bought joy to my night. danced my night away with elicia, chui yi, elaine, hann shaun and hann lunn. just brilliant! i missed my times in ICPU. memories running through my mind.

As for my preparations for finals, well i couldn't have dont it without the help of:
Elicia Wong aka my mummy - for the overnights we had, for the sleepless nights we had going through management, bus. stats, econs and most of all accounts.
Erica Seow - Without your help in Bus. stats, i wouldn't understand it.
Charmaine Wong - the help for bus. stats and econs! thanks love.
Cheanu Chew - my dear lovely cheanu, without your help in cramping everything about accounts, I wouldn't be able to do my questions and for all the time you spent with me, as well as your forever 24/7 hotline for accounts. You are the GREATEST! *winks*

Holidays are here now. I am just going to put aside my fear for my results and enjoy my holiday to the fullest. been out with Elicia, Hann Shaun, and the rest. I loved every part of it! Shopping with Elicia was brilliant. Overall just hanging out with you my dear mummy filled my life with laughter and joy. and you too my daddy shaun. Will be away for my beach holiday! Until then.
Happy Holidays Everyone!! take care.

Whatever it is you are feeling
is a perfect reflection
of what is in the process
of becoming

The joy of being self-less

2008-06-03T14:43:00.002+08:00

After two days of being home alone, my family is finally coming back from Damai Laut.

Sometimes I wonder was it a wrong decision for me to let go of a chance being with my family because of finals.

But then again, what has happened, happened and the moment is over.

This two days being home alone, was a moment for me to reflect how would it feel like to live alone abroad.

I realised that I still could not bring myself to go abroad, leaving my family and also my home behind.

Yesterday was another guest event for the Basic Training. Another new experience as the person sitting behind exploring and discovering. I love doing what I am doing right now.

Being in service to other people. To be selfless and just be there for the other person.

why a panda and not a unicorn?

why is there a distance again?

meganwong

The genesis

2008-05-31T17:42:00.005+08:00

The end of a month signifies a beginning of a new month.

I needed a weblog that could represent a new chapter of my life.

Many would not understand what I am speaking about but as the time goes by, the picture gets clearer.

For the past 3 months, I had the pleasure of working in partnership and in a team with 24 amazing people from different cultural, society backgrounds in Malaysia. I had seen these people achieved amazing results for their own as well as for the people in their team. Their drive to their success is lead by only a simple desire that they are compelled by, with the will as hard and tough as iron and with the support, love and contribution from the rest of the team members, success is therefore achieved in the hands, be it in the form of money, business, relationships or just a long forgotten dream. I am in this family, my family of LP114 and I'm very blessed to be a part of this family.

These people have taught me to be a stronger, better and a powerful person. They have showed me unconditional love, care and support that drove me achieving unbelievable results. They have allowed me to be in a space where I am able to show my true colours and push my ability to the next limit. Every time I fail and I fall, they will always be there to save me and bring me up all over again to start fresh. Their unconditionally giving has touched my heart and have me be the person who I am now. I have never seen such a powerful environment whereby people are not self-centered but instead they would reach out to others. My LP114, has not only touched the lifes of others in need, made a difference in another person's life but they have also touched my life and their own lives. The intimate, close relationship of this family will always stay in my heart and will always be with me where ever I am. Though we have graduated, but we will always stay as one, a family with a common vision, a common commitment and that is We are the source of world unity, United we stand, courage and strength with peace and harmony.

LP114

Therefore, here is the real beginning, the genesis of my life......a new chapter of my life....

meganwong